My mom wants to read my blog. If you read this, mom, hello!

I can't wait to watch Love Actually tonight! I've been hearing so many great reviews about the movie and yessah - now I can finally catch it! My mom was funny just now, I was telling her that I can't wait to watch it because it's romantic and sweet and she was like, "I don't like those kind of movies! I've passed my time!" Haha funny lah she. =)

If it makes you happy, it can't be that bad ~*

I'm sad now. I hate being judged this way. I hate tactlessness. I hate it when you turn out to be wrong about someone.

Everyone has told me that I have changed. But only two people have made me feel good about it. One of them, Shaza, acknowledges the fact that I'm changing. And I think I am. Before when I was attached, I knew my limits. I was happier knowing my limits, really. But now that I'm single, I'm pretty much able to do whatever I want and that's when I have to decide for myself if I want to do something. Have I changed for the worse? Have I become wilder? I'd say no. You're welcome to your own opinion, but I say I haven't. I'd say "Don't judge me," but I can't because you already have.

I don't think I'm not upholding love. Faizah just told me I'm strong for doing what I did. Just because you're in a relationship with someone, that you stick it out regardless, it doesn't necessarily mean you're upholding love. Of course you'd still love a person. You'd love him for the memories. I still stand by my opinion that you should only be in a relationship if two is better than one. In my previous relationship, two was better than one. Sure we fought, sure I cried, but I was willing to make sacrifices and endure for him because I loved him. But somewhere along the way, things changed. How come? Did I change? Perhaps. Perhaps I was too drunk on my new-found freedom. I'm not too sure if it was the distance that made me feel as though we had grown apart.

But you know what? I love him. I'll always love him. And I know [at least I hope] that he'll always love me. To borrow a few lines from a very old entry, written when I was sixteen, I'm content with knowing I have a special place in your heart.

I think I agree most with what Nurul said. That sometimes after being in a relationship for so long, you tend to forget the difference - why you're actually in a relationship in the first place, what it's like to love someone and be loved by someone in return. [At least I think she said something along those lines.] Which is why I need to take a step back from everything right now and just breathe. I don't know if what I'm doing now..I'll regret in time to come. I can't predict the future. I just know that I have to take this time out to breathe.

Right back at ya, babe.

Rock with me now.

We went to Courts this morning! Well, initially we were supposed to go to Ikea but decided to drop by Courts first. It was supposed to be Courts, Ikea and then Parkway. I don't quite like going to Courts or Ikea with them because they never listen to me! If I tell them something looks good or offer my opinion on something, they'll never ever listen. =P But I do offer good advice! My living room sofa? I chose it! My parents were very against it but thank God they decided to listen to me and everyone who came to my house likes it! So see - I do give good advice, haha.

I can't wait to go to Parkway. =) Hopefully they'll let me drive. I know jokes made against my driving are all in good fun but I am getting very weary of them. Grrr!

Oh! Yesterday was fun. Spontaneous meet-up with Shaza and Huda. =) I love love love surprising people [at work]. =) =) =)

Watched The Forgotten with my family last night. Were supposed to watch An American Haunting because I wanted to scare my sisters but my sister got too scared [=P] so we switched movie. Which turned out pretty well in the end because The Forgotten was good! =)

Klah, hopefully I'll get a new hp after going to Parkway. I doubt it but hopefully, k? K. Bye!